grass is always greener

the fuck! everything has its own price! in pursue of something better, shit will then screw you up! what the fuck is the matter with this world! why does shit does not happen to shitty people! crap! bad day!

eyes closed

i lost my ipod, my phone and a couple of bucks last week,,,, it crushed me but there’s nothing much i could do about it… i just realized that without my ipod, i am able to hear stuff i would rather not hear. im the type of person who would rather shut my eyes to not see the things i would not really appreciate and cover my ears to not hear something i would not like to hear. why? because what you dont know wont hurt you ayt?? i dont know.. i guess im afraid of the truth… ika nga nila eh… the truth hurts =) la lng.. just dropped by the cafe to check my mail today and i’ve been looking forward to visit this blog site na mejo na di-disregard ko na… just dropping by.. jhay =D

I cleaned my room today

I planned to clean my room today… maybe I’m just in the mood. So I lay down on my bed and think… what’s the first thing that I would do??? Then I suddenly realized that I have to check my wallet to see if I still have cash… Fortunately there are still a couple of colored papers hanging around. I also then noticed that there are so many unnecessary stuff stuck in my wallet. So I decided to pull out everything except for my cash. There were too many receipts and papers that I need to get rid of. I’m the kind of person who likes to keep even the smallest paper for memory’s sake. So I ended up throwing all of them even though I kept them for a reason. Even the small papers and receipts bring back memories I should not be contemplating on anymore.

Then, I checked my cabinet and pulled out 5 boxes. Contained in these boxes are my personal and not so personal stuff. I open them once in a while for no good reason. The first box is full of stuff given to me by women I have been completely and partially have been involved with,, if you know what I mean,,, most of them are letters and pictures,,, the oldest letter that I kept was 7 years old,,,, the letter was dated October 3, 1999. Nokia is just starting to make its way to the public market back in 99’ and I still have a good picture of the 99’ era…. exchanging of letters back then is a cool thing before,,,, I guess =) I never threw those letters away because I consider it’s sentiment an important thing… I even read these letters BEFORE just for fun. Tonight I read them the last time….. I fully read some and just took a glimpse on some. Some made me laugh while some were a little bit depressing…. Back then when I read them, it’s just plain reading,,, but I guess this time is different because I completely decided to read the letters one last time. There were also some things in the box aside from the letters including gifts and pictures etc…

Inside the second box are pictures and mementos from friends. Lighters, condoms, can openers we stole, receipts again,,,,, condoms???? Anyways that was just for memory’s sake as what I have mentioned… =) I came across a picture of me and my high school friends.. it’s a Prom picture.. I grinned a little and abruptly realized that 90% of the people in the picture may (I can’t definitely say “is”) not be my friends anymore…. Sad but true…. I had an awesome high school life because of my friends… Who does not anyways

There are memories worth remembering but sometimes I do not have a good idea what are those… Moving forward and changing aint that easy but it is inevitable. Sometimes we just have to move on and leave the past behind which I had a hard time letting go. Use yesterday for a better tomorrow. I did not do that.

Hours in my room have passed and my room still looks rubbish.. Good thing is I have finally cleaned my past… “Cleaned” in a sense that I was able to recognize what should be left behind and what should be kept…

Nuga Best !!!!!!!!

I met an old lady today and she was introduced to me by a friend. They call her “mommy”. We shake hands and to my surprise, she gave me a corn. May not look like the sweetest one but definitely a very generous gesture from someone I just have met. I got served with a very good treatment this morning for my back pain that I have been whining for almost 2 years now. My friend took me to a place called nuga best where 90 percent of the people are like as old as our first television set. Make it 10 times older.

Moving on, my friend told me about that place after I told her about my back pain. I am like a 60 year old man in my early 20’s because of this sting in my spine. People there are great and even the staffs that work there. It seems like everyone is your friend. We went inside the room and the first treatment that I have was this tummy machine thing. The lady assisted me and wrapped the tummy machine around my waste. It is like one of those big championship belts that wrestlers from the world wrestling federation wear with a little bit exaggeration (since the belt that I wore does not have any metals or chains hanging around). The wrestling belt started to vibrate and it felt like instant liposuction in just 30 seconds. My friend told me that the wrestling belt is good so that I would constantly visit our lavatory which is not a good friend of mine. After a few more minutes of being a champion wrestler, the belt started to vibrate harder and faster that I even forgot to breathe. I was in a little discomfort because the vibration of the belt was unbearable I could not believe it. So I asked my friend to have it stopped. And the lady that assisted me told me that it is normal since it is my first time. For God’s sake I did not pass military training back in college so that a wrestling belt will pull my manhood down. So I told her that I felt better and let the belt do its rolling for another 30 minutes. I get the hang of it and I would definitely do it again on my next visit.

After having my tummy treatment, we went forward to the bed machine where you would just lay down for 40 minutes and goodbye spine pain. The bed comes with this Jade stone gadget that is suppose to heal other ailments which luckily I don’t have. Another fine lady assisted me (which is one of the remaining 10 percent of the 100) throughout the treatment. Fortunately she was there or I could have slept on that very comfortable machine. After 40 minutes of lying down and talking to the lady, the treatment was over. I wish it was like on of those miracle stuffs that I see in TV where the blind can see and crippled people can walk again in just one push in the forehead. Of course I was still feeling a little bit of pain but at least I ain’t suffering no more. Besides, I got a dose of treatment more than what I have expected. The treatment was a definite relieve to me that I have been yearning for quite sometime.

I would definitely come back to that place…. Nice place,, nice people,,, good for the health,,,, good for the body and good for the heart….. lovely day….. till then…

The longest week I’ve had in two years

It’s been quite a while that I have been pre-occupied. Not that I am too busy or something, but at least I have errands to run every damn day. Bum it is what I am now. Hours seem to pass like days and days pass by like months and it goes on and on and on and on…..

I have been thinking lately (because I have the liberty and time to do so), will I be blaming myself for letting go of what I use to have in pursuit of something better? A friend of mine once asked me, “what is the most frequent thing we do everyday?”. I did not gave an answer because I thought it was a stupid question. The answer was “deciding”. I tried to figure out his point leading me to a conclusion that he just like to ask a cool question with a cool answer that he heard from somebody else (he was the kind of person who likes to steal someone else’s idea to use as his)…….. I was right.

We make decisions every damn second, every blink, every breath…. Some are as small as “will I be drinking this coffee or will I drink milk instead” “will I take the bus or the metro”. Some are big decisions that change our lives till the last second of air we breathe. I look back and ask myself if I did the right things at the right time with the right person etc etc.

I think some of them are good and most of them aren’t. I came to live with a belief that “we fail more often than we succeed.” I mean, is that even fair????? Anyways, it’s a fact. It is up to us if we will let failure trip us on our way to success. So now,,, where do I go from here??? Do I have a plan? I don’t know….. all I know is that everything’s gonna be good. I just hope that this day ends soon cause it’s killing the crap out on me…. Till then =)

nothing seems to last

i guess it is a sad fact that each and everyone of us have come to live
with. People would most likely associate this from positive events,
joyful feelings, wonderful persons etc. etc. Everything changes…
celebration ends, feelings fade, people go, everything but change
changes… paradox of which is that not just good things end,,, to
compensate the negativity of change,, i would just stick a notion in
the back of my mind that if good times end, bad times also do.

is it unfortunate that everything has to end?? i am at the verge of
losing my job right now. can that be enough evidence of the tragedy
of something ending? sometimes i am f@ck#ed up with these constant
changes. with just one snap my enthusiasm towards work was taken
away from me.. but don’t get me wrong,, i do not have the most exiciting
job in the world (believe me), but at least i learned to appreciate
myself and what i do. but all of a sudden,, the mighty mighty
“change” came to the rescue and f@ck#ed up my interest.

changes could either make us a better person or the other way
around. i am trying to deal with these inevitable changes with the
best of my abilities. sometimes it takes the toll on me and i always
come close to giving up,,, but when i think it over,, i would just say to myself
“pucha OA lang pla itong mga iniisip ko”.

i was in a long term relationship recently ended.. i guess, but not
totally certain,, i’ve changed. i was a loser and i used to think that i
would have no future ahead of me,,, i’ve changed.. I used to be judgedmental, I’ve changed,, I used to like regular coke,, I now often order coke light,, i smoke and drink,,, i still do, hehehhe

one thing we can do is to control those changes that we can and make the best out of it… people fail,,, we all do,,, and i am very familiar with that,, in fact i am about to confront it again,,, but what the heck!!!! f@#K failure and learn from it… stop the whining and do the walking =)

another nonsense thought from me,,,, till then…

   

Tuesday afternoon

Hmmm, i am not that much of a good writer, but what d heck, should try at least 

I guess i am better with my pen (the orthodox way=D) than with this keyboard. I used to write songs. I used to because i do not have the time anymore to think of “Random Thoughts” (nice edlyn hehe) that would fairly suite a fine melody.

 I think a lot, and when I mean a lot, it means from the moment I open my eyes until it shuts to sleep, I am thinking. Definitely is unhealthy at times. I always tell myself that I have the potential to be one of those lunatics in Mandaluyong (where I reside right now). I cannot have a f@c*!Ng peace of mind.  So by now you are thinking,, after reading a couple of words and i typing this down, where am i leading this into??? aahhhhh,,,, even i have not yet figured that out,,, this is my first time to write a blog or whatever layman’s term you call this stuff so pardon my lack of skills in writing,,, 

I am looking forward to posting some good stuffs in this blog.. I was unable to do so back then (jologs pa kasi noon wala pang blog heheh) due to lack of technology available in urban areas where we used to live heheh. Till then,,,

 

 

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