The longest week I’ve had in two years

It’s been quite a while that I have been pre-occupied. Not that I am too busy or something, but at least I have errands to run every damn day. Bum it is what I am now. Hours seem to pass like days and days pass by like months and it goes on and on and on and on…..

I have been thinking lately (because I have the liberty and time to do so), will I be blaming myself for letting go of what I use to have in pursuit of something better? A friend of mine once asked me, “what is the most frequent thing we do everyday?”. I did not gave an answer because I thought it was a stupid question. The answer was “deciding”. I tried to figure out his point leading me to a conclusion that he just like to ask a cool question with a cool answer that he heard from somebody else (he was the kind of person who likes to steal someone else’s idea to use as his)…….. I was right.

We make decisions every damn second, every blink, every breath…. Some are as small as “will I be drinking this coffee or will I drink milk instead” “will I take the bus or the metro”. Some are big decisions that change our lives till the last second of air we breathe. I look back and ask myself if I did the right things at the right time with the right person etc etc.

I think some of them are good and most of them aren’t. I came to live with a belief that “we fail more often than we succeed.” I mean, is that even fair????? Anyways, it’s a fact. It is up to us if we will let failure trip us on our way to success. So now,,, where do I go from here??? Do I have a plan? I don’t know….. all I know is that everything’s gonna be good. I just hope that this day ends soon cause it’s killing the crap out on me…. Till then =)

~ by jhaynonsense on September 6, 2006.